The Eternal Three - "Hour Of The Heart, Mind & Soul"

I went to visit my Gaurdian Angel yesterday.
I hadn't seen him face to face for nearly five years.
He hugged me when he saw me and seemed so happy that i couldn't help smiling myself.
We talked a little of when i was younger, my aversion to needles and the time i wouldn't let anyone remove the set of stitches on my arm but him.
We spoke some more of my future career and what persona should bring forth for the courts.
I'd have to lose the hair colour as it is to seem professional and i would have to be the right weight for my age.
I spoke to him privately before i left, to thank him for all he has done for me and his words to me in reply meant more than he'll know:
- "You are the last child your father has to watch grow up. You are the only one now who can do something with your life which he can be proud of. He has brought you up and kept a roof over your head,

Use this as a way to repay him.

Put your heart, mind and soul into this and God will bless you." -

His words touched me deeply and all the way home i stayed silent, thinking of what he said.

And deep down, i know he is right.

There is only me who can do this - no one can do it for me. It is the decisions i make now that will affect me for the rest of my life.
It's scary to ponder, but i'll do what i can - i can only do my best.

Which i plan to do with heart, mind and soul.

x

Playlist - "Hour Of Music"

My Personlised L Lawliet Playlist.

Life - "Hour Of The Gaurdian Angel"

Just something i wish to share.
My old family doctor is also a family friend and i hadn't seen him for years yet suddenly the other day he dropped by with £50 for me, calling me his "little daughter" (he'd never had a daughter - only sons) and my mother told him all about me wanting to do forensic science as a career.
He told her that he would arrange for me to have a job as a forensic science solicitor when i left school and that he wanted me to keep my head down and not give up on what i wanted - even if my friends didn't stay with me through it.
He said that if my friends and/or my boyfriend wouldn't support me and encourage me to do what i wanted to do, wouldn't help me to learn what i needed to learn - then i should consider them as not being good enough for me.
He said that piece of advice got him where he was and that it had never failed.
His piece of advice will be invaluable to me and i thank him dearly for it.
He is in his 70s and i believe that he is ill at this point in time and that he might not have long left.
His request was that i should see him before he dies.
I promise myself and him that i will follow his advice, become that [erson he sees me as and fulfill his request.
He is truly my guardian angel.
x

Lonelyness - "Hour Of The Bad Day"

Sometimes, i feel like no-one listens to me.
Like no-one gives a damn if i'm ok or not.
I know it seems stupid to think like that but yet again my mates seem to be ignoring me and pretending that i'm ok when i'm blatantly in the need of a cheering up session.

I'm in a mood because it's that lady time of the month and i watched Death Note last night and.......L IS KILLED!
I hate Light Yagami, but somehow i still like him.
I disgust myself.

I don't even know if i wanna carry on readin the books/watchin the series now. It's not the same without L, although Near come pretty close to him, it's not the same.

My brother is even being distant with me - i hate it.
Everything is like- -.- today.

But ya know what? I'm not gonna let it get me down.
L's dead but his memory lives on ^_^
My brother is just growing up.
& My friends are just having other stuff to think about.

Life'll be good soon.

I hope.